the answers to the questions

i look around to find
that once again
I'm alone and hurting inside

I'm lost in this world
and no one hears my cries
here with only me myself and i

i want to say how i feel
i want to let it out
i keep on searching
but my feelings cant be found

for once i find no answers
to the meanings of my words
i know that God is with me
but his voice can not be heard

Lord i know you love me
but i hurt so very bad
i know your with me always
and i know you always have

its easy to say i understand
but its very hard to do
i don't know where my life is going
but i know I've got to count on you

your my only hope
of getting through this pain
i hand you every tear i cry
Lord use them for your gain

i don't know where life's journey
is gonna take me next
i don't know if tomorrow
I'll take my final breath

i don't know why
i don't understand
but maybe if i don't know
is why i let you take my hand

maybe all my questions
aren't meant to be answered
but maybe your love
was the answer all along

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living in the real world

people say the real world
is living on your own
taking care of bills
paying for your home

when they think of the real world
i think they get confused
the real world isn't turning 18
or paying for your own shoes

when i think of the real world
i think of pain and sorrow
not knowing who will survive
or if you'll ever see tomorrow

to live in the real world
means to make mistakes
and learn from each and every one
that you continue to make

living in the real world
is thinking for yourself
making all the choices
and asking when you need help

both world bring struggle
peoples world and mine
but i will keep on messing up
and learning from it every time

GLASSES!!!!!

i have glasses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what do you think of them?????????? i have old 80's glasses!!!!!!!!!!! but hey......i can C better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if i were a hero

if i were a hero
i would save the world
id start with every homeless one
then every boy and girl

id find a cure for cancer
id make them feel alright
id bring peace to people
id settle every fight

i wouldn't sleep a wink
until each person fed
no one would be without a meal
hunger no person would dread

i am not a hero
i can not save the world
but i can help a homeless one
and love a boy or girl

i am not a hero
but i can do my part
give a meal
feed someone
help a lonely heart

i am not a hero
but i can spread the word
save someone through Jesus Christ
lead them to the lord

i have a little voice
not many can hear
but i will live to serve you Lord
Jesus i am here

Yet another poem (no name)

here is yet another poem.again its not perfect but it gets the point across. this one is for every kid who's felt helpless.
this poem needs a name. what should it be?



throwing up
is what i do best
high temperatures
and a hospital dress

I've always been
the sickest one
while everyone else
is having fun

many times
I've knelt and prayed
asking god
why this is how I'm made

I've cried
Ive moaned
lord i feel so alone
why cant i be healed

i want to run
i want to play
and never need to stop
i love you lord
with all my heart
your my favorite pop

but god I'm so exhausted
I'm tired of this pain
but god I'll keep on going
and I'll go in Jesus name

thank you lord
for all you've done
i know this is your plan
and even though
its hard sometimes
i think i understand

if i could slow down time

this is another poem that i wrote. just like the other1 its not perfect but it shows my thoughts and who i am. i hope you like it and feel the same way as i felt when i wrote it. when life gets bad just remember that there is some1 out there struggling along with you.



everyone is running
running all around
a little girl sits quietly
she doesn't make a sound

no one will stop running
their wasting precious time
she whispers to me softly
this should be a crime

she said

maybe things would be different
if i could slow down time
maybe daddy wouldn't drink
and Mommy wouldn't hide

maybe i could have a friend
that wouldn't make me cry
maybe my little brother
wouldn't have to die

and maybe my big sister
wouldn't drive so fast
and this past thanksgiving dinner
wouldn't be her last

i wish that i could change the world
with a miracle from above
i wish that maybe someone
could share with me their love

this story never happened
but it really makes me think
every little voice
should have their chance to speak

if we all would take our time
and listen to the world
maybe we could make a difference
for every boy and girl