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Hello again. This is my first post at age 15. A lot of things have been going on in my life...good and bad, but God has been with me through it all. I will try to keep posting for the 1 or 2 people who actually read these.......if u have any ideas for a post leave a comment. bye 4 now =-]

PLEASE VOTE!

my poem has won editors choice and will be published in a book, the top 33 poems will be taken and recorded in their book on tape called "the sound of poetry" my poem has proudly won that honor! the editors were very impressed with my work and have made me a semi-finalist! now this is where your help is needed..... after these 4 achievements it depends on your voting to put me in the finals!!! if i make it i have a shot at many cash prizes that would be very helpful at this specific time....to vote go to www.poetry.com and search Tara Troyer and click on the poem "if i could slow down time" your votes are very much appreciated!

thanks 4 the help!


Tara <3

(NEW POEM) Growing Up

As I get older
life gets harder
hating things
I used to love
loving things
I used to hate
facing things
I'm not ready to face
making decisions
I'm not ready to make
asking questions
I cant answer
its time to face the facts
I'm growing up.

im getting published?!?!?!?!?

my recent poem, if i could slow down time, has gotten editors choice in a contest and will be published in their book of poems and is currently posted on the website along with a few more of my entries. view my newly found "professional" talent @ www.poetry.com thanks!

Tara

hi!!

i havent said anything 4 a long time so hi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i will be writing more soon!!!

-biblebabe-

the answers to the questions

i look around to find
that once again
I'm alone and hurting inside

I'm lost in this world
and no one hears my cries
here with only me myself and i

i want to say how i feel
i want to let it out
i keep on searching
but my feelings cant be found

for once i find no answers
to the meanings of my words
i know that God is with me
but his voice can not be heard

Lord i know you love me
but i hurt so very bad
i know your with me always
and i know you always have

its easy to say i understand
but its very hard to do
i don't know where my life is going
but i know I've got to count on you

your my only hope
of getting through this pain
i hand you every tear i cry
Lord use them for your gain

i don't know where life's journey
is gonna take me next
i don't know if tomorrow
I'll take my final breath

i don't know why
i don't understand
but maybe if i don't know
is why i let you take my hand

maybe all my questions
aren't meant to be answered
but maybe your love
was the answer all along

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living in the real world

people say the real world
is living on your own
taking care of bills
paying for your home

when they think of the real world
i think they get confused
the real world isn't turning 18
or paying for your own shoes

when i think of the real world
i think of pain and sorrow
not knowing who will survive
or if you'll ever see tomorrow

to live in the real world
means to make mistakes
and learn from each and every one
that you continue to make

living in the real world
is thinking for yourself
making all the choices
and asking when you need help

both world bring struggle
peoples world and mine
but i will keep on messing up
and learning from it every time

GLASSES!!!!!

i have glasses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what do you think of them?????????? i have old 80's glasses!!!!!!!!!!! but hey......i can C better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if i were a hero

if i were a hero
i would save the world
id start with every homeless one
then every boy and girl

id find a cure for cancer
id make them feel alright
id bring peace to people
id settle every fight

i wouldn't sleep a wink
until each person fed
no one would be without a meal
hunger no person would dread

i am not a hero
i can not save the world
but i can help a homeless one
and love a boy or girl

i am not a hero
but i can do my part
give a meal
feed someone
help a lonely heart

i am not a hero
but i can spread the word
save someone through Jesus Christ
lead them to the lord

i have a little voice
not many can hear
but i will live to serve you Lord
Jesus i am here

Yet another poem (no name)

here is yet another poem.again its not perfect but it gets the point across. this one is for every kid who's felt helpless.
this poem needs a name. what should it be?



throwing up
is what i do best
high temperatures
and a hospital dress

I've always been
the sickest one
while everyone else
is having fun

many times
I've knelt and prayed
asking god
why this is how I'm made

I've cried
Ive moaned
lord i feel so alone
why cant i be healed

i want to run
i want to play
and never need to stop
i love you lord
with all my heart
your my favorite pop

but god I'm so exhausted
I'm tired of this pain
but god I'll keep on going
and I'll go in Jesus name

thank you lord
for all you've done
i know this is your plan
and even though
its hard sometimes
i think i understand

if i could slow down time

this is another poem that i wrote. just like the other1 its not perfect but it shows my thoughts and who i am. i hope you like it and feel the same way as i felt when i wrote it. when life gets bad just remember that there is some1 out there struggling along with you.



everyone is running
running all around
a little girl sits quietly
she doesn't make a sound

no one will stop running
their wasting precious time
she whispers to me softly
this should be a crime

she said

maybe things would be different
if i could slow down time
maybe daddy wouldn't drink
and Mommy wouldn't hide

maybe i could have a friend
that wouldn't make me cry
maybe my little brother
wouldn't have to die

and maybe my big sister
wouldn't drive so fast
and this past thanksgiving dinner
wouldn't be her last

i wish that i could change the world
with a miracle from above
i wish that maybe someone
could share with me their love

this story never happened
but it really makes me think
every little voice
should have their chance to speak

if we all would take our time
and listen to the world
maybe we could make a difference
for every boy and girl

The Reflection

i like to write poetry so i wrote this poem my first week of high school and this poem just kinda lets you dip into my thoughts of those first few days. I'm not the best poet and it doesn't all rime and I'm sure that i messed something up. but that's OK with me. this poem tells you more about me than i could ever tell you myself. Enjoy!



i looked into the mirror
i saw a face
a face i had never seen before
a beautiful face
a face that goes way beyond outward appearance
beyond the struggle
beyond the pain
no stress
no strain

a face that cares not what others say
but a face who lives to cease the day
a face that has been washed clean
a face that not enough people have seen

as i stare into the eyes
of this image i see
i long so badly
for this image to be me
i want people to see
what this reflection shows
a part of me nobody knows

a new reflection
a new start
all secrets out
I've done my part

searching for the things i need
to stand out in this blended scene

love and care
we all lack
I'm moving forward
no turning back

again i look into the mirror
i see a face
but this time
the face i see
i recognize it
its me

SORRY!

I'm sooooooooooo sorry!!!!!!!!! i haven't put anything new on here 4 like ever!!! well that's goN 2 change! I'll write so much you'll get sick of me!

@ the E.R..............AGAIN!!!

OK the first night i went they said i Had a virus and my little episodes should stop but if i had more lasting over 1 minute to come in again. so last night i went 2 the E.R. after having 3 episodes that evening. they didn't do any of the same things they did the night before leading me to believe that they had not yet found the cause of my episodes. after a while they got an x-ray and a lady from the respiratory team gave me a breathing treatment and my nurse game me a horrible tasting medicine and a slightly painful shot. a little while latter the nurse came in and started giving me my meds and prescriptions. then i asked her what it was i had and if it was the virus like they had said the night before. she said it wasn't a virus, what it really is, is bronchitis and Asama and what was making me have all of the Asama attacks was the stress of the first one and feeling like i couldn't do anything cuz i felt so week from the bronchitis. so I'm real sick right now but the doctor said that as long as i take my inhaler with me every where i go i and i take my antibiotic today i can be back on my feet and out of the house by Friday (aka 2marrow) oh i forgot to tell you but I'm over the pink eye (well they think its pink eye i just think it was sore but whatever the doctors say. lol)

I've been thinking

I've been thinking lately about why everything seems to happen 2 my family. i gave it a lot of though and while i was thinking i thought of a quote from the movie facing the giants when David said if god wanted me to do great things then why did he make me so small and so week? then his dad turned 2 him and said because that shows how mighty and strong he is.

i thought about that for a while and i thought that maybe the reason we get sick and face all these trials is because when god dose something magnificent in our lives it will be an obvious work of god! maybe that's why some people aren't as strong or as tall. we just need 2 praise him through the good times and the bad and trust that he will shine through our lives!

i don't know if all i said is completely accurate but i just thought i would share some of my thoughts with you. i hope you enjoyed them!

biblebabe

sick again

i went 2 the E.R. again last night cuz i would have little episodes where i would start gasping 4 air. the doctors office said they couldn't take me cuz they couldn't test me for my breathing. the doctor @ the E.R. told me that i have a virus and pink eye. but i still need prayer cuz they said that if i have another episode lasting longer than 60seconds then it can be more serious than just a virus and i would need to go in for observation and heart monitoring 4 about 1 week. so pray that if it is more serious that they can find it. so keep me in your prayers but so far so good!

biblebabe

why women cry

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him. "I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will." Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?" "All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say. The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry . Finally he put in a call to God. When God answered, he asked, "God, why do women cry so easily?" God said: "When I made the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort. I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children. I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining. I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly. I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart. I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly. And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed." "You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides." I hope ya'lls enjoyed this!


(this was copied by someone else)

something 2 think about

One day Satan and Jesus were having a conversation. Satan had just departed from the Garden of Eden, and he was gloating and boasting. "Yes, sir, I just caught a World full of people down there. I set me a trap and used a little bait. I knew they couldn't resist. Got 'em all!" "What are you going to do with them?" Jesus asked. Satan replied, "Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!" "And what will you do when you get done with them?" Jesus asked. "Oh, I'll kill 'em," Satan glared proudly. "How much do you want for them?" Jesus asked "Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no good. See, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you, curse you then kill you. You don't want those people!!" "How much?" He asked again. Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, "All your blood, tears, and your life." Jesus said without hesitation, "DONE!" Then He paid the price. - Isn't it funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the World's going to Hell? - Isn't it funny how someone can say "I believe in God" but still follow Satan? - Isn't it funny how you can repost a thousand jokes through bulletins and they spread like wildfire, but when you start sending bulletins regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing? - Isn't it funny how I can be more worried about what other people think of me than what God thinks of me. - I pray, for everyone who reposts this, they will be blessed by God in a way special for them - And send it back to the person who sent it, to let them know that indeed it was sent out to many more. - If You Love God... And, are not ashamed of all the marvelous things HE has done for you... ~Repost this as ~"Read only if you have time for God

(this was copied off of faithfreaks and i did not write this)

Burn!!!

One day a 6 year old was sitting in a classroom. The teacher was going to explain evolution to the children. The teacher asked a little boy: Teacher: Tommy do you see the tree outside? Tommy: Yes. Teacher: Tommy, do you see the grass outside? Tommy: Yes. Teacher: Go outside and look up and see if you can see the sky. Tommy: Okay. (He returned a few minutes later) Yes, I saw the sky. Teacher: Did you see God? Tommy: No. Teacher: That's my point. We can't see God because he isn't there. He just doesn't exist. A little girl spoke up and wanted to ask the boy some questions. The teacher agreed and the little girl asked the boy: Little girl: Tommy, do you see the tree outside? Tommy:Yes Little girl: Tommy do you see the grass outside? Tommy: Yessssss! Little girl: Did you see the sky? Tommy: Yessssss! Little girl: Tommy, do you see the teacher? Tommy: Yes. Little girl: Do you see her brain? Tommy: No. Little girl: Then according to what we were taught today in school, she must not have one! BURN! "FOR WE WALK BY FAITH, NOT BY SIGHT" 2 CORINTHIANS 5:7

(this was copied off of faithfreaks & not written by me)